Memories from my soul
Do you ever experience this? You walk into a room and somehow you get the feeling you’ve been there before. It almost feels like home. Or you do something you have never done, ever, and it feels good right away, as if you’ve done this already a million times. It’s like you remember things. Still, they’re things you can’t possibly know.
It happens to me. When I’m driving long distance in my car I feel like I’m riding a horse. I know it sounds weird, still I do feel this way. It’s as if my hands are not touching the steering wheel but they’re holding reins instead. And while I’m driving this feeling of freedom arises in me as if I’m galloping full speed on my horse crossing hill after hill. My reality is somewhat different though, because when I look around I only see tarmac roads, cars and the occasional gas station on the side of the road. No freedom and no green hills in sight.
I have no idea where this comes from. Do I have a thing for horses? No. I do like them, but not particularly. Do I ride a horse? I did once, but that didn’t leave me with the feeling of freedom and pleasure. Rather a memory of painful muscles and a sore bum…
A similar thing happened to me when I traveled through Malaysia and I visited a temple for the first time in my life. I remember standing in front of this temple and taking my shoes off to enter this sacred place. The moment my bare feet touched the cold marble floor and the smell of incense filled my nose it felt like coming home. Strange, until that moment I had never visited a Buddhist temple before nor did I have a connection with Buddhism. Still, it felt so good and so familiar to be there at that moment.
We know that our senses help us to store memories in our mind. But those are memories of things we experienced in our childhood or situations and people that happen now. My memories seem to remember things that I’ve never experienced before, strange…
A while ago I visited a reincarnation therapist. I know, not everybody is on the same page about past lives and reincarnation. You are free to form your own opinion about it. But me, I’m intrigued by this subject. I’ve been following a therapist on Twitter and Facebook for some time, and she touched me with her stories. The thought of a session with her kept crossing my mind, so I decided to act on it. I wanted to know if I’ve been on this planet before and, what I’ve been up to all those times. Besides, there were some things bothering me. Questions I had about my life and certain situations. Questions I would love to have some answers to.
Memories from past lives
It was a wonderful experience, to travel down my past memories. To dig deep into my soul and to see who I was, where I’ve been and what I’ve experienced all those times. Before we started Chantal and I spoke about the questions I had and about my life and where I’m now. And to many of these questions I did find the answer.
It’s remarkable that experiences from so long ago can have such an effect on you and still influence you and how you live your life today. I’m talking about experiences and feelings you weren’t able to understand and integrate back then. Feelings you still carry around with you. These feelings surface in the life you have now, so you have the opportunity to deal with them and to act on them. You’ll notice these recurring feelings because you keep ending up in the same situations over and over again and meeting the same type of people over and over again. And again and again…until you’re aware of what’s going on and you break this cycle of bad experiences. Because it seems that you are the one holding the key to your own happiness. You are the one with the power to make a different choice in this life and to end this cycle for good.
At times we look at the difficult people and situations in our lives as obstacles. Things that are annoying. We have this tendency to withdraw within our own feelings of anger and grief and point our fingers to the world outside us and claim that they are the responsible and annoying ones. Still, we can learn so much from these situations. By seeing them as mirrors, we get the chance to take a look into our own soul and see where we limit ourselves. By seeing them as challenges we get the chance to heal ourselves and become who we really are.
Looking back I can now say that I’m grateful for the people that have crossed my path. They were my mirrors and showed me where I could heal myself. How difficult and painful some of these moments may have been to me, I now see them as gifts. Gifts who brought me back to the real me. Now I have seen where my memories and feelings originate. Now, I have broken some cycles.
They were right though, my memories about horses and temples. It seems that in a previous life I roamed the hills of France as a warrior, fighting for freedom of the land. In another life I was the abbot of a monastery, somewhere in Asia. My senses remembered it perfectly!