I’m not keen on looking back. What’s done, to me is done. Those moments that inspired warm and happy feelings, those I keep safe inside my memory. And the moments that weren’t that great, usually the ones linked to sadness and anger, those I have let go of. After I lived and breathed through them and felt al there was to feel and I did my best to learn from them all that I needed to know. But then, I don’t feel the need any longer to return to those not so great moments from my past. The past isn’t the place where I live. I live in the here and now.
And as I look into the future, I see the goals I’ve set for myself. I see the dreams I have. Dreams I really want to make a reality. They’re not tangible yet, these dreams. They haven’t yet shown up in the here and now. But from where I stand I already see their outlines in the distance. And they show me where it is I could end up.
And as I stand here, daydreaming and staring at my future, something in the distance catches my eye. There is more to see than just the outlines. Every image that I spot on this skyline is made up of separate parts. And when I focus and look more carefully I recognize these separate parts. Every single piece represents an experience from my past. And I notice the persons I once met, in relationships, friendships and at work. I understand why every single one of these experiences, whether I liked them or not, was essential for my future goals.
I recognize the pitfalls I once stepped into, exactly the ones I will encounter in my new ventures, but now I will be able to avoid. I see the new parts of myself I discovered and unveiled, ready for me now to use with that one endeavor that is on my mind. I understand how every job and all the things I’ve done in my life perfectly fit in the image I have for me in my dreams.
Missing only one of these experiences, would have made it more difficult for me now. I would have had less knowledge to use. I would have gained less insights in who I am and in life in general. But most of all I wouldn’t have felt so grounded and confident that the images on my skyline truly are within my reach.
I’m not keen on looking back. But sometimes it helps to turn around and see. How all the bits and pieces that made up your past, now perfectly fit together and shape your future. The future that is so perfectly made for you.
Copyright picture: Björn Simon